The
sun slowly rose above her leaving a warm orange glow over the horizon. The sea
water tickled her feet every time it came to caress the shore. The salty breeze
held a calming effect to her thoughts as she looked around as yet another day
came to life and everything returned to normal routine. The palm trees swayed
to the rhythm of the wind. The waves rolled in gleeful joy before they crashed
on the pier and the seagulls squawked to make their presence known in the clam
morning. Nicki had taken a vacation to clear her mind of all that had been
happening around her and what better place was there to provide serenity than
the beach front? She sat taking in the beautiful, still calmness of the sunrise
hoping it would clear her mind but all it seemed to accomplish was to make her
wonder about how everything around her could simply go on without a glitch when
her world had come to a screeching halt when he told her the one word that she
had never dreamed of hearing coming out of his mouth. “Goodbye”
He
had said it to her exactly three weeks ago at his concert but to Nicki it was
as if he had spoken it a few minutes ago. His voice echoed within her,
repeating, almost taunting her with the word. She remembered everything about
that night, how he looked when he spoke to her, the boyish out grown curls at
the top of his head and the shadow of a beard he had kept neat. How he smelled
when he hugged her and the one that hurt her most was how he sounded when he
finally let her go. His tone was defeated, his soul was drained and Nicki
couldn’t bear the sight. She wanted to run to him and embrace him a tight hug
and give him a kiss that would literally take his breathe away but contractual
obligations stopped her. Obligations that she had agreed to without fully
knowing the dire consequences that would result in them.
Nicki
was taken out of her thoughts by the sea water that had now been slowly
covering her legs. She decided to go up to her room to shower and maybe catch
up on some sleep as she had immediately set for the beach after checking in.
she hadn’t even bothered to unpack her bags. She quickly made it to her room
and completed her bedtime routine and checked her phone for any important
messages before putting it on the bedside table and calling it a night.
~~~~~~
“Tell me what
you want baby” he whispered into her ear as he kissed the tender spot behind
her ear. His lips caressed attentively down her neck as he awaited her
response. His aim was not to mark her but he couldn’t help it when it was so
easy because of her fair skin. He carefully disrobed her to reveal her ample
chest that made his mouth water. His hot tongue was felt circling her left
breast and his hand was massaging her right. Nicki gasped and let out a moan,
the sensation his lips alone on her chest was enough to send her on a frenzy.
Drake was always so caring to her and in her opinion those tender kisses on her
skin proved nothing but his care for her.
She felt his
tongue move lower and closer to her naval then he repeated “tell me what you want
baby” Nicki was so caught up in lust that she almost didn’t hear him. She
simply lifted her bottom hinting that she wanted him to pull off her thongs, he
got the hint and caught the black lace fabric between his teeth and seductively
rolled the material down her smooth legs all the while leaving a hot trail of
kisses on her thighs. Nicki couldn’t keep her moans in any longer and let out a
breath anticipating his next move. Drake was face to face with her pleasure
center but refused to succumb to the gnawing need to quench his thirst “Tell me
Nic…I am not going to do anything unless you tell me to” he said in a husky
voice. He looked directly at her, his eyes dilated from the strong ambience of
lust and sex in the hot air around them. Nicki was paralyzed in that instance
the only this she could let herself do was succumb to pleasure. “oh Aubrey,
please make love to me” And make love he did wasting no time from tasting his
awaiting entrée…
“Damn,
why do I always wake up before the good part?!” Nicki let out with a frustrated
sigh. That dream had been plaguing her from the day she met him. She always
dreamt them when she craved him the most but ever since she got a taste of how
it was to be with him intimately, she dreamt of him every other night but
whenever they would start doing anything worth anything she would wake up.
She
stretched herself on the bed and looked at the time of the bedside clock, it
was then that she realized that she had slept throughout the whole day. She
then decided a little anonymous night out will do her some good…well as
anonymous as she could get given that she was in Miami and it was a Saturday
night. She quickly showered and opted for an all-black outfit. Black ripped
jeans, Black tank top, Black Biker jacket and black wedge sneakers. She topped
of her look with a simple side swept messy ponytail and minimum make up. Just
because she didn’t want to be noticed doesn’t mean she couldn’t be cute while
doing so. “That’s what we call blending in like a ninja” she giggled at her
silliness as she looked over her appearance on the full length mirror.
She
decided against the club scene as that would cause a raucous and opted to go to
the little bar across the road from the hotel where she was sure no one would
spot her. The goal for tonight was to drown her sorrows in alcohol while
wallowing in self-pity. And drown her sorrows she did, to the patrons of the
bar she was a little shy of a lunatic – taking pictures with everyone, slow
dancing to dubstep and twerking to country music. The barman kept the shots
coming and she kept the people entertained. It was a win-win.
She
knew that drinking so much was not a good idea but she kept at it anyway.
According to her she was having a good ass time and there wasn’t a damn thing
anyone could do about it. However the bar closed at 2am and she just decided to
stumble on back to her hotel room. She silently thanking her sober self for
choosing to just go outside the hotel. She went straight for her phone before
losing her nerve.
“*Beep*
Hey Aubrey, I know it’s late, I just wanted to check up on you, see how you are
holding up since we last met. Anyway hope you are well. Goodbye” click.
“Why
aren’t you answering your phone? PICK UP I miss you!” click
“Aubrey?!
I know you are not ignoring me for some random ass ESPECIALLY if it’s that
bitch again. I am trying to talk to you! Answer ME!!!”
“I’m
sorry for that last message. I am drunk. I am going to stop now. Sorry again.
Goodnight”
“Well
look at you, you are still at it huh? Well aren’t you KING FUCKEN DANGALANG???
You know what? Screw you Aubrey! I hope that pussy you are hitting is weak is
FUCK! Fuck this. I am out!”
Nicki
angrily huffed and tossed her phone on the bed while grabbing the readily made
blunt from its packaging and made her way to the balcony. Her mind was
everywhere thinking about what he was doing at this moment when he left his
phone unanswered. The alcohol was starting to wear off and all her thoughts,
doubts and fears came flooding back. She blankly stared at the sky, Dawn was
breaking and she could hear birds start their morning songs and see the stars
that continued to glow above. Again, the world around her was going back to
normal and it only saddened her further as it reminded her how her entire world
ended when she lost his love.
The
sun rays pierced her closed eyes as she stretched her sore limbs. Her head was
pounding from drinking and the bright sun made her feel dizzy. She rushed to go
empty out her stomach. “Argh…why did I drink last night?” she asked herself. Once
done she brushed her teeth and freshened up deciding to use the day to recover
from the night before. She huddled back into bed and chose a movie to watch on
her laptop when her cell phone buzzed. He heart stopped beating. Her throat
went dry. Her hands started shaking awaiting the inevitable blow to her soul.
She found her phone and unlocked it only to find business related texts. She let
out a breath she didn’t know she was holding. She disliked to be scolded and
more so she disliked to be scolded by Drake. She didn’t think her heart would
be able to stand another blow from his rejection. “This is what you wanted
though, right Nicki? Why are you not happy?” she asked herself. “Quit being
selfish” her tears were falling again and dug herself deep in her blankets.
Hours
passed and the tears dried. She was about to call and apologize for the
messages when the phone beeped in her hand. It was a text. A text that let her
know that not all was lost. A text that gave her hope that they could start
rebuilding again. A simple text that somehow managed to make her heart flutter.
A small smile made its way to her face as she read it.
Aubs:
Come through.
